nothing i have is really mine

Have you ever experience wanting something or someone so badly that you even promise yourself that you'll do just about anything in order to acquire it? You have this mindset and nothing or even no one could alter it. And so you work your ass off for the fulfillment of that "want". But then when the day where you'll finally going to have it comes, suddenly you no longer want it. Nangyari na ba sa inyo yun?

Sa akin maraming beses na. I thought I'm certain about wanting things or a person but when I finally got it, I begin doubting. Para tuloy nakakahinayang sa pageeffort. Come to think of it, paano nalang when it happens on a very important matter? For example, marriage. You and your husband-to-be got everything prepared, however when your wedding day comes, you realized that you don't want to be married to that guy. So what will you do? Runaway bride ba ang drama? You could be sued because of the public humiliation you brought to your partner. Worse, paano kung after pa ng ceremony mo maisip na ayaw mo pala talaga sa kanya? You're already bound to spend the rest of your life with him. Creepy, right?

Others said that it's the challenge that we're really after, that's why when it's finally close to end, we no longer find it thrilling and exciting. Parang curse kasi you'll have this unsatisfied need. You'll keep on searching for things but instead of making you complete, it just leaves you incoherent, lacking and even more confused. Will all of these lead to an epitome of loneliness?


laterdays!